Insights (Orig posted 21 Sept 2007)

Well these have been a bunch of weeks of worry and sadness and dissapointments etc etc etc. No job, no friends, no money, no family, no future, nada nada nada! Things that u used to enjoy doing are not that exciting anymore, the few friends that occassionally appear on the surface do not manage to cheer u up, you see how other people are ridiculously more successful, more attractive, happier, etc, you pray like a robot and question whether there is actually an answer for everything or it's just that some people are destined to be stranded in the middle of nowhere for ever...

I was hopeless...

And then it hit me...

I was hopeless!! hopeless??!! I don't think I've ever been there before! It's always been a bit sad, or angry, or worried, but never hopeless!!! And that worries me because a proper religious catholic person cannot be hopeless!! Was I really giving up on God??? He's given me so much and I'm just being a whiny bitch that's just not getting what she wants!!!

Yeah here it was... my answer. I had to find my hope back. That afternoon, I got the news that I was having an interview for a job :D

I realise that giving up on hope was giving up on my faith in God and what He knows is good for me, cos believe he knows that much better than I do! And while I was celebrating the return of my hope, I finally understood one of the most important lessons in Religious Studies in School: The Theological Virtues: Faith, Hope and Love.

Without Faith there is never Hope, and if there is no Hope it is impossible to Love. Without Love, life is worthless...

So yeah, my life hasn't theoretically changed from last week, I'm still unemployed, with less money, still no family around... but I got my Hope back!!!! :D

And also... "She" by Elvis Costello, defines me perfectly.... what a song!!!

Fucked Over (Originally posted 7 June 2007)

Just a little question.... hope I don't offend anyone...There's loads of girls that keep getting fucked over by guys, and at the same time guys that just keep being dragged around the floor by girls. And we all know what's wrong and give them suggestions and advice.

but...

What about the people that keep getting fucked over by friends?? Honestly, I need an unbiased opinion, and probably comments from people that can see it from the outside. OK, I admit it might be my problem... but WHAT is my problem? Why does this keep happening to me? Please I need an external examiner...

I can give relationship advice too in exchange if you want

Sorry

Hello Everyone
I just revived this page and read some of the old posts I wrote. Sorry about them, they were proper childish rants.
Although it'll be unwise to say that I have grown up since then, I am aware that talking about this stuff is not interesting lol!
SO, sorry about that. I promise I'll write more interesting stuff.
I got a couple of old posts that I will put here, just because ;)
Love to all!
xxx