Selfish

I often wonder if when I get hurt, it's because of me or not. This week had a lot of those "wondering" moments. I wasn't hurt, but was extremely annoyed at how many people can be so self-involved and inconsiderate. Makes me wonder if selfish people are just generally more successful in life. Sadly, that seems to be the case.

You understand when people cannot get out of their ways to help you in many circumstances, but to refuse assistance just because they don't feel like it AND making sure you know that, it's shameful in the least.

I think about the moments where I sacrifice a bit of my time or resources to help another person and even though I don’t get a reward it kind of makes me feel like I’m a better person because of it. I see, however, people that are apparently happier, richer and more popular and liked do not do this. They get away with being selfish because, well, you have to take care of No. 1 first, right?

There are two things I can do: Either stop getting involved with selfish bastards or at least making sure that I do not count on them for anything ever again, or I become a selfish bastard myself. I don’t think I can possibly live with the latter. I’m too nice. Blame it on my parents or on my Zodiac sign, but that is my reality and have to live with it.

I suppose the only thing I can do is learn to live with it, and make sure that I don’t become one of them, no matter how tempting it looks. And if I ever have the need to be “selfish” and to refuse assistance, I know who to practice with ;)